Monday, December 26, 2011

Cross Roads AGAIN?

It's 11.40pm right now on a Friday night. This is going to be a one of a kind post which I never had the chance to pen/type down as I always have this excuse of saying "I'm busy"!

At this point in my life, I am basically at another cross roads after a year of being back in Malaysia. This is when you look to the right and weigh your options and to the left and do another weighing of your options in life.

Am usually the happy-go-lucky person that keeps going and going until my body tells me to stop which is actually happening right now. I am truly upset with my health and body one will believe this even if I said it..

"I've been sick for ONE WHOLE MONTH"!

The same recurring symptoms, the cough, flu, sore throat and fever. I get well, and the next day, the same thing happens. That is why I started reflecting on what has lead me to where I am right now in my life. Do I want to continue down the path I am going? Pursuing my vision to unleash the potentials of youth in Malaysia through the media or simply pack my bags and go back to the USA where life is just one simple road..... get the PhD and do research or Teach?

But the past week, I met someone who actually help direct me somewhere, a person with her own life goals and vision because she has endured hardship when she was young. A person with ambition, but has taste hunger before because her grandparents didn't have enough money to feed her. A person that worked a full-time job when she was doing her degree in Accounting. She's the same age as me, and has achieved alot, a business in Cambodia, and Malaysia, and a full-fledge restaurant now. She's also a chartered accountant! She tells took alot of HARD WORK and PASSION to get where she is. The best thing about her, she's sincere!!!

After meeting her, and now mulling through my thoughts, I am determined more than ever to continue down the path I've set to do. It's still a wonder to me how many people who meet me are interested and impressed with my visions, but no one gave me any direction or even helped me through it. The worst are those who know how to help but never utter a word of guidance. There were of course my close friends, boyfriend, and family to support me. Plus, my readers and people that I've worked with that believed in me, THANK YOU ALL!! Please continue believing that I can achieve what I've set out to do. Will put action where my mouth is.

Back to square one of last year, I think it's time for me to set a new timeline for next year and continue manifesting my goals. Being the "over-achiever" that I am, I will admit that I am stressed out to say the least the past month on how to move forward, and that's probably why I can't get well. Many or rather, close people around me would think that I've achieved quite a fair bit this past personal list which YOU don't have to read:p


- Graced 2 magazine covers


 - Featured interview for the the Star Metro, Star Rage section, and Star property

- Featured interview by Faces, MYC, Women of Malaysia, and Cleo magazine

- Featured shoot in Queens, Faces, etc.

- emcee-ed 40 + events

Hari Belia 2011
Charm Cheerleading Championships 2011

From huge cheerleading and youth events


To numerous Proton events around Malaysia

And a variety of Corporate events from family days, to launches, and corporate dinners

Family event for Olympus customers

Munchy's launch

Mercedes Benz Appreciation Dinner

ECM Libra Elite Launch

Isola Singapore Dinner and Dance

- Hosting a show for RTM2

- Voice over for Lisa on Astro Tutor TV SPM(channel 603)

- Speaker to motivate form 3 and Form 5 students in Malaysia


- Passed my comprehensive examination

-Published a paper in a reknown journal

- Presented at an international conference in China

- Lectured two courses in Inti

Research methods course (PS250)

After listing it down, I should be really happy and over the moon BUT I'm still worried and anxious for what the future holds. One thing I know, I won't give up so easily even with the challeneges that I've faced so far with insincere and dishonest people.I have plans for a few things next year which will be executed!!!

Most importantly, I will need all of your support to make my dreams to unleash the potential in every Malaysian youth come true.

To those who have supported me the past year in terms of exposure, hiring me, believing in me(especially readers and followers who have messaged me on facebook, encouraged me, and also "liked" my facebook page)....

THANK YOU!!!!!!! I really appreciate it. *loves*

Have a Merry Magical Christmas and a Brand Spanking New Year!!!! :)


P.S. Last but not least, I thank God for everthing I have learnt this past year because I appreciate every bit of it


Mr Lonely said...

happy new year~ all the best~

Regards, (A Growing Teenager Diary) ..

elaineliew said...

I am appalled at your achievements and truly vision that your dreams one day be manifested.You are a well over-achiever and I admire you and believe that you "WILL" reach the penacle of success to your dreams! Take care of your health and may 2012 see Mei Sze at her best and her highest glory!Merry Christmas and have a blessed New Year.XOXO from a viewer and believer,fan,follower and friend.

LuCa said...

Seeing all the things you had done really encouraging, you are a good achiever. You really move forward very fast. Shock to know that you ill for 1 whole month and take care of yourself. its gonna be better and better in this year of golden dragon.

Mei Sze said...

MrLonely: Have a great year ahead!

Elaine Liew: Thanks!!!You have a blessed 2012 ahead..I am sure you can achieve everything you put your mind too as well

Luca: Is it the year of the water or golden dragon? Thank you for your well wishes... I strive to do more this year actually:)

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